goh boon min is the biggest coward .. tsk . dont even dare to take the first step to apologise . why i wan to post everything out ? maybe i dont wanna be so secertive anymore ? its suck to stuff too many things to yourself . this was really a big obstacle for us . actually didnt really expect you to take the first step . was taking my afternoon nap den when i wake up . i saw this msg .. And yea , i turn emotional again .. maybe becos this isnt a easily task for you and me . since you have already done it , of cos . i'm willing to return everything back to the same . but i guess . there'll certainly be a gap there . i know both parties will try to cover up . but .. its quite deep. so i dont really expect much about it . nabei .. friends leh . i dunno why feel like crying den i really drop 2 DROPS of my precious tears . even relationship i dont drop even 1 . maybe this is the sign for me to move on ? " ting ting ting " "stage clear" ? if thats the case .. i suppose this is a lousy life game ! cos it really sucks alot . how could i forget you ? ur case , or maybe your freedom was my biggest mistake to start burning it away . But i hope , u will get the punishment you wan at the end . i hope i can walk on the correct path always . please dont switch my path cause it may hurt someone again , which will totally break my heart into pieces again .

God ... wont you just grant him a wish ?

breathless . i guess ... this will be the goodbye isnt ? didnt really wanted to let go but i guess .. i dont have a choice ? once again , thanks for everything .

i dont deserved such a good friend isnt ? tsk .. farewell buddy :)

what to say ? things shouldnt have happen had already happened . BUT . who are the one that are willing to listen to my story ? boonmin is a big bad guy . but .. if i say out my story .. will anyone believe it ? i doubt so . 5 years .. do u think that 9 months fren can over take 5 years ? i say definately NO .You might find me trying to be mr good guy now .or wadever ,since i had already done it , whats there to say ? how bad can i be .. haa . i advice him to say out . but .. do u know why i said so ? YOU ALL DONT KNOW. the conversation goes like this .. " someone shoot me out ." "who sial?" " 100% not him lo" " den who say out ? ""still got who?" and all the fake story he told me .. A GREAT THANKS TO YOU . a million thanks to you .. im a bad guy . why bother to ask so much ? fuck it . guilty ? long ago gone beyond the worst . tsk . "you" dont have to trust my story , but everything i said . 100% its true . 5 years .. i felt sorry for you . felt worst for myself . worst den a beast . but who cares ? i had already done it . but when someone told u everything when hes crying .. will u choose not to believe him ? fuck my weak heart . fuck my weak mental . i know everything too well .. bet this will be the deepest cut in my friendship line . when i turn around , will i ever see this batch of ppl again ? dont think so . im a bad guy . dont deserve it at all . will u readers trust me ? touch ur heart . and i guess i should know the answer. Thanks for the accompany all along my teens life . sorry to disturb you. Will u turn off ur stubborn and look back again ? i dont expect you to forgive me or wad . i just wan to get everything right . you're right . my truth . if i were you , i will choose not to forgive too . anyway , i think you should del my msn and unlink me too . i dont deserve it ya ? fuck this .

bet this feeling will last quite awhile . fuck it !